Wednesday, May 21, 2008

This is horrible

All I can say is I gained 2 more lbs. now I'm 22lbs from goal. CRAP!!! I'm frustrated. I bought a sweat suite someone said sweat it off.. didn't work for me.. I get night sweats but I couldn't sweat an inch with the dang suite. I just don't sweat!!! I upped to 1200 cals not working!!! I would be crushed but I'm to ticked off. LOL!!!

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Having a "poor me" moment

I can't believe I gained 2 lbs... - so my total loss is at 9lbs ( was at 13) which means I am now 20 lbs from goal If you've read all my blogs i messed up in lbs needed to be gone!! Nonetheless!!! I have been swamped at work putting out little fires and getting so behind I don't take a break so I don't walk and don't drink enough so it's all my fault. Just sick of the drama want it over now!!! I'm so tired! I wanna be insulin free NOW!! Yeah I did this to myself and in order for WLS to be successful I gotta do the drama. Just needed to VENT!!!

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Wha wha what????

On Friday I spoke to the RN at KP Fremont. Good and bad news. Good news is found way into an earlier orientation (thanks to Ghouliegal) . So I'll be ahead by like nearly a month!!! I lost 13 lbs... hovering between 12-13 lost depending on the day or the hour. But my goal weight before the surgery is gonna be 28 MORE lbs than I've already lost. That will be my thinnest weight as an adult!! What the heck??? But I gotta do what I gotta do!!! No crying in weight loss. Well there is and lots of it. You feel me, right? So I suck it up and keep on tryin' . I went to the dentist yesterday cuz I thought I'd aim for the whole new look get my teeth done, look all prettied up before my big 50... another bombshell. This Friday I need a root canal.. what? I wasn't even in pain... often! That's right up there on my favorite things to do too. Yep right up there with getting my finger nails pulled out one at a time with my head in a vise grip and a bowl of cold stone staring at me!!! As for the work I really wanted done on my smile... wait till end of 2008/2009. Dang another set back... this is gonna be a very hard year!!! But to be honest hard seems to come easy to me! (?) I know God has his hand over me no matter what I see so I'm really okay with all of this.. HE'S NEVER failed me yet!!!

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

I'M APPROVED!!!!

I just found out that I didn't need an approval!!! My last approval is still valid! Yipee!! But that's not what they told me in April!!! I have to go to another orientation meeting since the program is changed but, that's 6/29/08. Hopefully I can get into that sooner!!

Friday, May 2, 2008

Yeah! So I'm not that good at waiting....

I couldn't take it, I called Fremont to see if my PCP definitely referred me. And he did. BUT receptionist told me this was my third attempt at the surgery and that my referral was pending approval. My mouth dropped!! That made me panic. I just got dropped from the program for the 1st time in Jan. of this year!! That was my only drop!! Here's my thought. If I were the decision maker and a patient had already dropped twice I'd be hard pressed to allow them into the program again. I mentioned that to the receptionist and she blew me off!! So I left a message with the program coordinator and followed up with registered snail mail. It's not that I wanna make a big deal about it but dang I'd hate to get denied due to incorrect information!!! This is too important to me!!!